3-21-25

At this point, and times previously, I have operated on faith. I can think of no more apt word. Just like religion, it is simply belief. A facade, for the cynic in us. But truly there is no other justification for my belief outside of my belief. It simply is, simply will be.

Though this “new?” Perspective is liberating. I cannot remember having more of a justification for doing art other than simply wanting to do it. As a child at least. As a young man, I think particularly after losing the support of peers, it became a vendetta for greatness.

So faith does not have to be a righteous battle for greatness (literally defined a jihad). It can be a quiet knowing. And done through action. If I do my proverbial prayers five times a day, I know I am right with God.

In all of this I feel aided and hurt by my religious knowledge. But in some cases I do not know how to articulate these ideas but with terms like God, holy, divine, etc.